After four months of traveling Costa Rica and the mysterious, untraveled parts of Ponca City (LOL), I am in nesting mode. Trent and I spend many of our evenings and weekends cuddled on the couch watching movies and hanging out with our pups. Euphimastically said in the least, we are also very boring and introverted so removing ourselves from our quaint island home is quite difficult :) But seriously, no other glamorous external circumstance competes with the tenderness and love that radiates from my heart, inspired by my continual journey: my Present.
This year has been a challenge. Three very powerful men died in my life starting from my grandfather, followed by Tenton's father and then my own dad. The emotional rollercoaster that seemed to be giving me nonstop rides was relentless but necessary. Coming up on the finish, Trent and I decided to exit the park and go abroad for peace, serenity and an escape. In our defense, running away from feelings or digging out when times get tough is instinctual- no one wants to feel pain. However, the idea that happiness, success, serenity is off in the distant future, inhabiting a middle-sized, second-world country is ignorance at its finest. What can I say- I am human and suffer from a self-inflicted condition of chronic suffering steming from my own desires and expectations. My grand plans of "future fun time" are totally normal yet replaceable by ideas of "present fun time". I am happy to say, I am starting to chisel my way through inherent human consciousness and get to the meat of the fruit: super consciouness. With a little help from spiritual texts, teachers and yoga of course, I am starting to really understand the beauty of the Now and its enveloping wholeness. Therefore, by spiritual demand, I am changing my course and treking a new track in unchartered territory: my Present. Fasten your seat belt, this is going to be a wonderful ride.
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